The phone call from the doctor was so fast. She explained it to me in just a few words. After going over the results, (benign hyperplasia) with me and explaining it is a precancerous condition and not cancer, she said the hospital will just call me when it’s two weeks from my appointment, I asked my questions about the dates or lack there of and then she said goodbye. Honestly I should have asked more questions, taken notes or written about it earlier but I’ve been pretty busy and tired lately and I haven’t had the time or energy since the appointment, it left me feeling very disappointed.

I think I am disappointed because I again thought that I would get a date that I could write down on my calendars and prepare mentally for the months and weeks leading up to it. It’s as if they don’t realise the surgery is both terrifying and something an entire household would need to prepare for. The worst part is the aspect of the surgery just being any time in the next like 6 months to a year (she said it could even be up to 18 months). The hospital is supposed to call me 2 weeks out from surgery. How am I supposed to realistically prepare? 

I hope to get ready and just stay ready if that’s even possible. I will need to clear my calendar, not that I am able to be a very ambitious planner considering my long and heavy periods being early or late whenever they seemingly want. The biopsy seemed to make my ovulation late and I am worried it will make my period late as well. We are taking a trip soon and I am so concerned it’s going to happen on my trip. On the bright side though it is possible that this could be my last trip where I could be bleeding through my outfits and sick from pain.

Not having this surgery date is causing me a lot of stress. The date of my surgery being given to me feels like it is the last step before it, everything else is now in order to have my total abdominal hysterectomy aka everything but the ovaries will come out of a bikini cut in my lower abdomen to get this huge uterus out or that’s what I have gathered. I wish she would have spent more time explaining everything to me in a less medical way. The call was so brief I didn’t even have time to get my husband to listen into the call to help me fully understand and remember what she said.

I just don’t understand why they’re operating this way, it seems unorganised and the analytical/technical part of me wonders if this is why the wait times in my area seem so low when they are reported online because they don’t start the process until the wait is short on their end. I am curious if I can call the hospital and ask for the date or if they would even have the date but surely they have a database where they could possibly search my name but I don’t know for sure because I have never worked in any medical field. I will try to do that before my next blog entry.