In the last few weeks I have been super busy, I had my vacation and my sister is in from overseas to visit. For my vacation we went to Las Vegas and just by luck I had gotten my period I think two days before taking my flight. Of course I would get a period before my vacation with just enough time to need to pack an entire section of my luggage with maxi pads. Although I somehow felt pretty good for most of my vacation I find a great deal of comfort in the fact that it will be my last trip anywhere with my period as I am saving my vacation days now for my surgery recovery. 

It is so annoying that it was late prior to my big trip and now I am having another period early because why not and furthermore that my last period was fairly mild but now this early period I am having now is not mild at all. In fact I was feeling it days before I started bleeding. I felt completely drained and constipated but then it passed the blockage again and took me out on the toilet. I had gone to bed and woke up in a puddle. It is as if the uterus has a mind of its own and knows what’s going on. I once had my period late with an exam and then I miraculously got my period moments (I swear it was less than 5 minutes) after I finished writing my exam. How is that possible? It reminds me that I have a few women who say they get their periods the morning of surgery as if it knows what’s going on.

I guess this is it, the wait… 

Having to wait to find out when it will be in two weeks is torture and it still doesn’t make sense to me that I need to wait to then wait. I am the type of person who likes to prepare months and months in advance. It is hard to not feel like it is a conspiracy to keep reported statistics more presentable because there is no way they will be able to accurately report my actual wait time on this. Even if you were to only consider being approved for the surgery and then when I actually am going to get it. It feels like I have already been waiting months, but it has actually been a month, just one, since I expected to be able to get a date for it. 

I can’t wait for it to feel like wow that was X amount of time ago, but I am stuck on this side of surgery for a while longer. Every time I get my period now I wonder, will this be my last period, my third last period maybe? I am so scared of it being poor timing. I wonder if it will be for the winter holidays or in the spring for my birthday or next month. I am hoping to get a puppy in spring of 2026 that will be realistic with the mystery date. We also want to buy a house/move in July. I have so many worries and it is difficult to plan for the future without knowing when I won’t be able to sit up for a couple weeks.