A month and a half has passed now and nothing has changed at all. I am still getting very painfully sick whenever I need to move my bowels, having scary episodes of excruciating pain where my hands numb up and I need to ice my abdomen to ease the intensity and cramping painfully for ovulation. I feel as if it may have been getting worse at this point with longer, more lingering pain and cramping 3 to 5 days around my ovulation period now on top of my typical 7 day menstrual cycle. I am feeling intense pain, bloating, constipation, cramping, and/or bleeding heavily now what feels like more days every cycle then I am feeling well.

I am finding that I am becoming constipated by weekly even biweekly bases for the last couple months. I can’t go at all for so long then it feels like it’ll kill me when I am finally able to move my bowels. It is the same body numbing gut ripping apart feeling then so much bypass. I have been finding in recent weeks that it is even difficult to empty my bladder again now and it is just so frustrating to constantly feel that pressure in my crotch and pelvis. It’s hard to tell if it’s related but I have also been really drained lately with little to no energy left after my work day is over and even on the weekend I am napping before noon lately.

I called the hospital the other day to try to see when my surgery might be cause I still have no idea and to my dismay the person told me that I am not on the list and she confirmed my middle name without me saying it so I am clearly on file but she said I am not on the list. This news was horrifying to me because I have been literally in the emergency room and have been forgotten when I was literally in front of the people so I understand it’s busy and fast paced for them and forgetting or overlooking things is possible. My only option was to call the surgeon’s office. 

Just to my luck that happened at 3:59 pm and the office phone lines that day closed at 4 so I wasn’t able to get through to them to ask and then the following day they had limited hours and I tried over ten times (excessive? maybe) but I couldn’t get through in the time window they were open for. I tried again today, prepared to call every ten minutes for many hours and got through the first time, which was nice. They said they’d have to call the hospital and they use a different system in their office and in the hospital.

They said they would check in with the hospital and call me back but they didn’t say when they would call me back. I really hope that it is today and if not today this week at least. I think they also mentioned that my file said “ready to treat” which sounds right to me. I am so super ready to be treated and to have this big scary surgery over with.