7 months now into a 12 month wait. The surgeon never followed up and I don’t think she’s going to. I have been considering calling them to check in again and maybe I should. It is just pretty difficult to get through to them on the phone. I have honestly been feeling okay lately considering everything, I have found a new family doctor that is located close to where we hope to be moving in the late summer. We aim to move in August or September even, that is 14 months into the 12 month wait so my hope is that I will be healed by then. Hopefully I will be able to continue to see this doctor in my recovery.

I have been having a lot of groin, hip and lower back aches and I fear its from sitting at my desk all the time so I have switched to using a Ball as a chair and it’s been pretty good for me so far, although I find myself slouching in new ways now it has really lifted the pressure on my vagina. I heard about pregnant women using the ball and I can really see why. I have also started trying to be more mindful and preparing my body for surgery on a higher level.

I have heard alot about women struggling to lose weight after the surgery so I have been more mindful of what I am eating and how much I am laying around. Cutting out pop and other sugary drinks. I am currently 20 pounds overweight so I’d like to lose a bit of wait before I get the call. I also have very poor core strength and I hear a strong core can make the healing easier. I feel as if my core strength has never recovered from the last time they cut through all of my abdominal wall. I want to be ready. The wait is so long though how could I not be ready..

This March I will be helping with my grandfather who is getting a hip replacement surgery. I hope to go over to his home to work and to help him in the daytime. Hopefully this experience doesn’t make me more nervous about things, watching someone else’s health from major surgery. Although it’s hard to really feel any way about it because it doesn’t really even feel like it’ll really even happen. I’m curious at what point it will seem real. Probably not until I have a date. 

This wait is torture. It’s unfair that people that they cant just tell me a month, a season, a half of the year, any kind of hint to when it will be. I have read that a lot of women never return to work from their hysterectomy maybe the unpredictable booking has to do with it. Seems to me its for all surgeries too my grand father has a hernia recently for 9 months before they bothered to call him with a date that was in 10 days. Ten days isn’t enough time for most people to plan for life events like this. It so weird to me that it isn’t common to believe that a major surgery is a high life event that requires a lot of planning and vacation time.