Still no confirmation of the date outside of the receptionist saying September 16th. She mentioned it could be moved earlier or later then the date so I am a little paranoid that it’ll be pushed later but after more than a full calendar year, can you blame me for worrying. I am eager to get it over with, I want to figure out work/sick leave benefits and I want to move on to be able to be more active, to go to the gym.

For the last about 6 weeks or more I have been struggling with bloating and over-eating, maybe due to stress but maybe just from boredom. I have become really concerned with my weight. Being over 160 pounds is a lot for me but my measurements are nearly the same at my waist and chest (about 1 inch larger) but my pelvis is 5 inches wider. I am not sure if I am just carrying all of my gained weight there or if it’s related to my uterus’ size and mass. I am very interested in the weight of my uterus once it’s out of my body. I been joking that maybe it’s 20 pounds and I’ll come out of surgery not overweight haha. My weight has always been pretty dense but I’m very curious if that will change without my uterus. I have read that some women struggle a lot more to lose weight after this surgery. It could just be as you get older, but it’s got me really worried. Likely in an unhealthy type of way, I have gained a lot of weight in a short period of time more than once. In the more recent time I had gained a lot of weight in a past relationship and I didn’t notice until it started being obvious in pictures and I want to take care of myself better so that doesn’t happen again. I have been walking every day though and I try to be up and semi active all day every day avoiding laying in bed until bedtime. Just got to curve snacking so often. 

I am also very very worried about the process of my sick leave benefits. I am from Alberta, Canada. It’s been unclear if I will need federal benefits or if I’ll need provincial. From my understanding provincial coverage is not guaranteed to actually pay you, its guarantee is just to hold my position at work. And I believe and have been reassured that I can trust my role won’t be affected and I really want to believe that but more importantly I have bills to pay so I need to do the one that guarantees pay.. 

I’ve taken the time to create a check list using AI and it’s helped me ease my mind a tiny bit. The system is terrible. The thing is that they do not allow me to apply until I am off work. They do not tell you when the surgery will be until like two weeks out, they also won’t give the medical certificate until the surgery.