I’m coming on 6 weeks now and I feel just as shit as before the last 5 days in a row. This is in line with when my period would of been but of course I am not actually menstruating. No blood, no cramps and that’s great but I seem to have my other symptoms still. I’m still constipated til that time of the month (I’m still tracking it kind of in the Flo app) but I was scary constipated for a whole week sometimes even having to move it manually and then some blood but then so much diarrhoea and gas cramping. 

I did get a 8 week old puppy also and she’s been keeping me up at night and I haven’t been able to get consistent sleep for longer like 3 hours in a row since. It’s been a several days. We got her on Tuesday. Which was my 5 week mark. So maybe it was a bit too soon to bring her home honestly since I haven’t slept well at all for all the of my 5th week post op but she’s getting used to her bed and stuff, slowly but I realize it’ll take her some time and I may not get solid sleep for a few more weeks now which possibly is not good for me but everything I am reading says that will slow my heal but it shouldn’t hurt me it’s just really hard not to bend at the waist and not to squatting and I have been doing that alot. 

At this point it is incredibly wearing on me heavily. I want to have sex with my husband and I want to not have constant tummy aches and diareah and uncomfortable constipation. I want to enjoy my puppy. 

It makes me feel almost regretful to have had the surgery because I am still experiencing a lot of the quality of life lowering symptoms. I feel hopeless and like I am never going to feel better now.